Final Blog For 2009

This year has been a hard year for me personally. This year has been one of the worst years for me as far as matters of the heart are concerned. I faced a difficult breakup, and on top of that had my heart broken. My great grandmother passed away, which lead to family issues. I have lost some friends without explanation. I overcame some scary health things. I watched as my best friend lost her home. I watched as other friends experience heartbreak and sickness. I had a bad experience selling some items.

Obliviously it was not an easy year, but there were some wonderful things. I found a completely new world opened up to me with canvas and paint. I started writing a lot more and decided to work on a book. I started a new program in school and in turn made lifetime friends. I have made some amazing new friends from blogging. I have made connections that will last a lifetime. I have had some really cool things sent to me via the postal service. I have helped people and children. I have reconnected with some family. My 20 became 18

I have I try to look at the negative and learn something from it. This year I have learned about endurance and holding on. I am still hoping to find love. I am not giving up and looking forward to 2010. I am hoping to meet some of you face to face. I am ready for a change and a New Year…. I can’t wait to see what it has in store for all of us. Everyone have a safe and wonderful New Year’s.

Enjoy the video I put together of some of my favorite moments from 2009 set to the music of the Glee cast.

Wait For Me

I have posted this once I wrote it 7-22-08. I thought I would repost it. I am working on my end of the year blog...

Your waves pour over me
I am your shore
You open me up once more
Fate don't let me drift off to sea
This shore is where I will stay
Lost I have found my way.
Please wait, oh wait for me.

Ray LaMontagne - Let It Be Me

I am exhausted and tired...working on a year end post. I thought I would share a song that I fell in love with recently. The lyrics are awesome and the song is beautiful.


Lyrics to Let It Be Me :
There may come a time, a time in everyones life
where nothin seems to go your way
where nothing seems to turn out right
there may come a time, you just cant seem to find your way
for every door you walk on to, seems like they get slammed in your face
thats when you need someone, someone that you can call.
and when all your faith is gone
feels like you cant go on
let it be me
let it be me
if its a friend that you need
let it be me
let it be me
feels like your always commin on home
pockets full of nothin and you got no cash
no matter where you turn you aint got no place to stand
reach out for something and they slap your hand
now i remember all to well
just how it feels to be all alone
you feel like youd give anything
for just a little place you can call your own
thats when you need someone, someone that you can call
and when all your faith is gone
feels like you cant go on
let it be me
let it be me
if its a friend you need
let it be me
let it be me

My Christmas

Well I had to work all weekend including Christmas but I didn't mind since my family doesn't really get together. Not mention the fact that I am single this year. The holiday seasons have always been some what difficult for me, but I try to make the best of them. I snapped some photos so my readers can see how I spent most of the weekend.

Every morning Gracie wakes me up by jumping on my chest...Christmas morning was no exception.
I did manage to go to the movies a couple days before Christmas with my friend Robin and her two children. I am excited about this photo because I was able to fit into the shirt underneath the sweater...I haven't worn that shirt in two years....

Robin gave me this for a Christmas present that day :)

I got to work early Christmas morning to make the kids breakfast. Every child should have a warm Christmas breakfast.

I made gravy and eggs too. The kids loved it

We had one client who didn't leave for Christmas...I took the client to the mall to watch New Moon despite my non-desire to see the film. I wanted the child to have good Christmas so I sucked it up. The Christmas decorations were pretty in our mall so I snapped a photo.

The day after Christmas I was wore out from playing just dance with the clients on the wii. I decided it was ball cap kind of day at work.

I made my co-workers help in the kitchen haha.

I cooked dinner for the kids (baked spaghetti) I managed not to start any fires goooooo me!!

The best part of the weekend was the Rocket art I received in the mail....YaY. I loved the pieces I received

This one was also in the package... :) It is hanging above my desk and it will be the theme for this next year to come. I have to hope it will be better than this year. Thanks Rocket!!!!

I hope everyone had a lovely time with their family and friends. I hope everyone to the opportunity to give and show love to those around you.

Glee - I'll Stand By You

It's my long work weekend and a holiday...so I leave you with music. I love this show and recieved the CD from a co-worker for Christmas.

Merry Christmas

I wanted to take the time to wish all of my readers and friends in blogville a Merry Christmas. Take this time to enjoy family and friends. Take time to give...and give love. Take time to be thankful for what surrounds you. Be safe and careful especially to all those traveling. I realize some of you may not celebrate Christmas...for those of you who do not Happy Holidays or just Happy days.

Movie Time: Invictus

I have been waiting for a couple of weeks to see “Invictus”. There are several reasons I wanted to see this film; Clint Eastwood directed it, Morgan Freeman is one of my favorite actors, and I have always found Rugby interesting. The greatest reason it shines some light on Nelson Mandela’s presidential term in South Africa. Mandela was a great leader and turned SA around.
I remember as a child learning about Mandela. I knew as a child that he was treated unjustly and thrown in prison for no reason. As a child, I could not help but feel compassion for this man I barely knew, at a young age I cried for him.


Seriously, I was a very caring child. I remember when I was a small child, the Trix Cereal commercial making me angry because the kids would not give the rabbit and trix. I think I even cried a couple of times watching it. I always said I would give the rabbit some cereal. I have always been compassionate and kind it has been my nature. As the years have passed, I have become a bit jaded with life and people. Do not get me wrong I am still compassionate, but nowhere the way I was as a child. One's heart does not recover quickly after being hurt so many times. This movie reminded me of how caring I used to be.

I loved this film because the viewer was able to see just a fraction of who Mandela is. Here is a man who was locked in a cell for years and he came out full of forgiveness. He was ready to lead and forgive some of those very people who placed him in prison. It is a story of triumph…he was wrongfully placed in prison and came out a leader. He took a nation that was on the brink of a civil war and united them in a sense. I walked out of this movie feeling good and trying to find that deep compassion I used to have as a child.

While in prison Mandela used the poem entitled Invictus (meaning unconquered in Latin) to help him make it one day at a time.

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

This poem is wonderful however, the words that stick out to me “I am the master of my fate; I am the captain of my soul”. I am the one that determines how I react to things. Things may become blink and dark, how I react can change the outcome. I do not have to give up or waste away..... things will get better. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel even if it is not in clear view. I recommend that my readers take time to view this film. It is such a positive film.